I ran into my reflection again. It seems I only see it when not looking for it.
I iron my hair in mirrors, change my clothes. I take photos or pictures of myself with computers and cell phones, make videos with friends. I stare at myself on the internet most of the day.
Still, I don’t see my reflection.
It catches me off guard. like when I stumble into the bathroom drunk, wash my face and look up. When I walk into my mothers room and glance at the mirror straight ahead.
When I’m not tying to make myself look like someone else.
You’re allowed to scream, you’re allowed to cry, but do not give up.
My boyfriend looks at so much porn his computer is infested with pop ups and Delta Search. He does it wrong…. so wrong.